Another entry

Well this seemed like a great idea at the start. I really thought I would write more here. I guess I will as time goes on. I got on the scale the other day and it was not good. I'm really disappointed in myself.

this used to be so easy. How did it get so hard. Why?

questions that seem to never have answers. I think I'm going through mid life crisis. There is so much I want to do but can't figure out how. Life is really getting tough to handle. I'm not complaining. I don't think my life is horrible by any means. I have a job (that I want to change) I roof over my head (that I wish was mine instead of renting), a great kid (who will most likely leave for college) friends (that I hardly ever see) and a great family (that I never see and miss dearly)

and there you have it. I just realized that were approaching October. This could be the reason why my mind is at a standstill. Not a very pleasant month for me as I lost both my dad and my grandmother in the month of October. And I'm not saying its a bad month...It just makes me sad. This could be the reason. Yah think!

well anyways...Back to my fat.....Sarah and I are talking about joining Curves. Most likely in the near future. I would really like to do this. Hopefully we can get on that sooner than later. Perhaps that will kick start into a new mindset for me.

its getting cold and this isn't much of a "feedbag" type entry. I should have written all this in my other journal. Ah well....

see yah next time.....

The Bet

Well I told you about Sarah and I having this little bet...Well it was a dead heat. I think that is the right term.....We both lost 5 lbs. LOL...So nobody won. I'm thinking though.....Since we both were ready to lose some cash for this bet that we should put it together and get the TV that we want. We'll see.

since she's been gone I really have been pretty lazy about eating. I wouldn't be surprised if I lost a few while she was gone. We'll see.

nothing to exciting going on here. I'm feeling pretty good these days actually. Still uncomfortable in my own skin about my weight, but not like.....Really upset about it. Perhaps cuz I've lost a few ....Who knows.

something my friend Maria told me the other night at my birthday dinner which you can read about here if you want, was that it's all on me now. They did what they could and now its up to me.

true that.

only I can make this happen and nobody can do it for me, so I best to get off my ass and so something and stop complaining, right.

right...........

I'll update ya on how that is working for me.

have a good one!