Lets Get Blogging Started, Shall We!!

well after a few rough days we started out pretty today. civil at least. I think i put to much pressure on her. maybe im expecting to much. you know that saying misery loves company....well im miserable and bringing her down with me. i dont' like to make her cry. but i do. im not a nice person. I try really hard but deep down...i just don't have it in me. especially since im not happy myself. i need help. seriously.

ok today so far.....

730am (in the car): 2 hashbrowns (6), bottle of water (0) = 6 points

800am (at my desk): coffee w/creamer (2), cinnamon raisin bagel (4) w/half veggie cc (2) and half strawberry cc (2) = 10 points

I wasn't really hungry when i got to work...i know i wanted coffee and i know i wanted something. while im here let me get caught up for the week so i can really start doing this right....

Monday

nothing on the way to work Breakfast - (at my desk) 2 packages of 2 point WW cheddar twist snacks (4), water, tea, water,tea = 4 points

Lunch - (at my desk) half of sausage/egg/cheese bisquit (?), 1 turkey and ham & cheese hot pocket (?), water = ? points (ill have to figure that one out)

Dinner - (at home) 2 whoppers with bacon and cheese (?)

Midnight - (at home) 1 Taco Bell Crunchy Nacho grilled stuffed burrito (?)

Ill have to figure the points out when i get home. not really the best choices i know this...but when funds are limited, this was about all i could do. but thats monday.

back to tuesday.....

i dont why it is that my brain function is always wondering what im going to eat next....always wondering what i can get now. money is a bad influence. as soon as i get it, im thinking...ok....where can i go to eat....or who can i call to go out and get something to eat.....and i have no problems paying since im the one who really wants to go. is it because i don't like to cook where i live? is it just easier? i know im an addict but there has to be something more to it. why does money equal food?? i can do so many other things!! buy new clothes, buy anything!! god forbid...SAVE IT??? Bills, food, gas & Bingo.....its all i spend my money on. thats it! and im talking about eating out kinda food. i don't go grocery shopping. if i had my own kitchen...i would...but i don't and it discourages me from going. which is why i don't cook, which is why we eat out all the time....or we microwave.

i have an excuse for everything don't I.

11am (at my desk while typing this) a strawberry danish (?)

water water everywhere......

Noon (cafateria) thai salad with noodles, chicken, lettuce, tomatoes, advocado, cabbage and a peanut sauce dressing. i ate about 3 1/4 of it... (?)

im pretty full right now. i won't be eating again till later tonight...if i decide to stop anywhere. im thinking i won't...but we'll see. our neighbor has given us lots of tomatoes and the roomies won't eat them...so im sure ill grab a few and munch on them. love tomatoes. that just might be dinner actually.

7pm (at home on the computer) 2 tomatoes our neighbor gave us. plain.....ate like an apple...lol

well thats. i dont' think ill be going anywhere to get anything. as a matter of fact i know im not going anywhere.....so that was my day.

have a good one!