I am NOT Hungry!!!
I find that I have to tell myself this all the time. It’s really sad. All I think about is food. For everything that I do I want to eat something to go with it? It’s like all I think about. I don't get it. How did I get like this? When did this become such an obsession? When did I become an addict? And why can't I stop this.
So my meeting was last Thursday and since then I have been making better food choices. I have been over points I know that.... by 5-10 points. Still within my daily/weekly limit so far, but still eating more points than I should a day. I haven't gone over my weekly limit yet, so I'm doing ok. Portion control is a huge issue. I have no problems eating salads, veggies, the good stuff...but they are just huge in portion. When I say I have a salad...its in a huge bowl, I buy by the bag and I go through half a bag at a time. I wouldn’t be “full” if I didn’t. I think that is part of my issue. I need to feel full and I hardly ever do. Unless of course I've consumed everything in the house. Which can be done. Sad to say. But I don’t. Obviously.
It’s this constant need to eat. It won’t shut up or off. I literally have to ignore myself a lot of times. Especially when I’m driving. By passing all the drive thru’s. There are just so many. As much as I try to even change my route, there still there. But it’s getting easier.
I’m not feeling much of a change. I know it’s only been a few days, but even before I felt different. I’m not feeling different at all. In fact I feel the same if not worse.
I need to get moving. I’ve discovered that I have sever leg & foot swelling especially in my right leg. The foot of the ankle I broke 20 years ago. My left ankle swells but not nearly as much as my right. My leg gets rock hard and my ankle looks the size of a grapefruit.
What has to happen before it finally sinks in?
Is there such a thing as drinking to much water? I consume an enormous amount of water a day. Like over 100oz. It’s that too much? Could that be part of the reason of my swelling? I do use the washroom a lot. And I do try to watch my salt intake.
I guess time will tell. Lets see how this week goes and then next week or I should say…any day now…ill start to do some exercise.
Thanks for reading.
So my meeting was last Thursday and since then I have been making better food choices. I have been over points I know that.... by 5-10 points. Still within my daily/weekly limit so far, but still eating more points than I should a day. I haven't gone over my weekly limit yet, so I'm doing ok. Portion control is a huge issue. I have no problems eating salads, veggies, the good stuff...but they are just huge in portion. When I say I have a salad...its in a huge bowl, I buy by the bag and I go through half a bag at a time. I wouldn’t be “full” if I didn’t. I think that is part of my issue. I need to feel full and I hardly ever do. Unless of course I've consumed everything in the house. Which can be done. Sad to say. But I don’t. Obviously.
It’s this constant need to eat. It won’t shut up or off. I literally have to ignore myself a lot of times. Especially when I’m driving. By passing all the drive thru’s. There are just so many. As much as I try to even change my route, there still there. But it’s getting easier.
I’m not feeling much of a change. I know it’s only been a few days, but even before I felt different. I’m not feeling different at all. In fact I feel the same if not worse.
I need to get moving. I’ve discovered that I have sever leg & foot swelling especially in my right leg. The foot of the ankle I broke 20 years ago. My left ankle swells but not nearly as much as my right. My leg gets rock hard and my ankle looks the size of a grapefruit.
What has to happen before it finally sinks in?
Is there such a thing as drinking to much water? I consume an enormous amount of water a day. Like over 100oz. It’s that too much? Could that be part of the reason of my swelling? I do use the washroom a lot. And I do try to watch my salt intake.
I guess time will tell. Lets see how this week goes and then next week or I should say…any day now…ill start to do some exercise.
Thanks for reading.
posted by Jae | 7/31/2005 10:22:00 PM
1 Comments:
As I read this it just amazes me, it might as well be me writing it. I do the same things, I feel the same way. I've done the 'be good' all day and then scarf chinese food at night. I've done the order McDonalds and then be just SO pissed at myself - like when I get up to the little box thing where you order every bit of sense leaves my head. You're put on the spot and you go back to ordering what ya know. I mean, I suppose that's habit... but eating too much at night I think is from letting yourself get soooo hungry that you don't care. I mean, I care, and at the same time this FORCE compells me to eat everything in sight. Reading your posts make me want to join weight watchers again... are you still doing it?
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