Not The Brightest Bulb...

Ok so I never claimed to be the most intelligent. Especially when it comes to food.

My first week on the program and I think I did ok. Not great. But ok. The first 2 days were horrible and I just made bad choices. The weekend I did better and the rest of the week went well too even with having money to spend. (money=food) I didn’t go to the cafeteria all week, the only drive thru I was in was this morning for coffee and all in all I did really well. And it showed. I lost 5 lbs.

Now here is where the dumb-ass in me comes in. now in the past on WI day I would not eat or drink a single thing until after the meeting. Which was at 6pm and I was famished by then. But I also knew that my friend and I were going to Subway afterwards so without necessarily pigging out…the sandwich very much satisfied my hunger pangs. So yesterday being weigh in day, I didn’t starve my self all day. I did really good actually. I drank mostly liquids. Coffee in the morning followed by water till about 1pm (the meeting is at 5pm) and I ate about a handful of trail mix, which did very well and kept my stomach satisfied till dinner. So I was thinking I would get Chinese again for dinner. I noticed the last time I went that they had a diet menu and I would order from that. I was thinking I would get chicken with steamed veggies and rice. And that would be a good dinner.

So I go to the meeting, lost 5 lbs, pretty happy about that, I was feeling pretty good physically (somewhat) the meeting was pretty good too. I think I like this group better than the other one. It's a little bigger and the people are more interactive than the later group. So it was all good. Off I go to get dinner. Where it just all fell apart.

I ended up getting sesame chicken with broccoli, rice, egg roll and wantons. (not the largest portions, but a lot nonetheless) I don’t know what happened. So I got home and walked the dog, changed clothes, noticed that I have a new pain now in my left knee. It kinda feels like It's going to come right out of the socket. I’ve tried to “pop” it in place and one time it did (very painfully I might add) so I won’t do that again, but still it doesn’t feel right. It literally feels like I'm going to take a step and my knee will become dislocated. It's not a very good feeling. I’m hoping it goes away. Anyway…..

So I ate it. Not all of it at once. But I ate it. By the end of the night it was all gone.

So today now, I'm feeling it. I'm feeling sluggish, short of breathe, wobbly like. Just bad.

Lesson learned.

Today was a good day. I got coffee this morning, drinking tons of water all day, munching on WW 2 point snacks and some trail mix and I haven’t felt that need to eat yet. Ive been pretty busy at work too so that I'm sure has helped. I drink a lot of water a day so I'm constantly running to the washroom. I'm looking forward to dinner tonight. I think its tacos. I know I have the points for it and I will make sensible choices and eat a sensible portion.

My plan for the weekend is to do some “spring” cleaning as to keep me active and away from that computer chair. I do have to work the phones tonight, which will be hard on my legs, but I need the money. I'm really trying to get in some activity even if it is just cleaning. It's not sitting, which I do way too much and I'm not to happy about it.

I just hope that in time as I lose more weight my pain will go away. I'm sure I have done a fair share of damage to my bones being obese for most of my life; I just really hope that It's not to late. The last thing I need right now are doctor bills.

So have a great weekend and I’ll update soon!

Hugs, Jeannine